today

The long days come, days in which all motivation escapes out of reach. No desire, no passion. Just an emptiness, a soul sucking barren wasteland. These are the days when I just want to escape, get lost, run away from my life.
I know that this will pass, these days always do. All I have to do is keep moving forward.
The odd part of all this is with my medication keeping me on an even keel I am able to look at my emotional state with a certain rational detachment. Sometimes it feels like part of myself is just an observer, watching from the outside. Part of me is crashing and the other part is standing at the window yelling stop but the window is sound proof.