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Month: February 2024

The State of Modern Man

Please note that the next paragraph was written by an AI system because I just wanted to give it a try and see what all of the fuss is about. This is the only time I will use AI to generate a post because this is my brain dump, where I share my thoughts.

Jake sat at his desk, staring at the blank computer screen in front of him. He had been trying to write his novel for years now, but something always held him back. He couldn’t put his finger on it, but he knew it had something to do with the state of the modern man. In a society that glorified success and material possessions, Jake felt lost. He longed for a simpler time, where happiness wasn’t measured by the number of likes on a social media post. But as he looked around, he saw his peers chasing after the next big thing, never satisfied with what they had. Jake realized that the state of the modern man was one of constant dissatisfaction, always wanting more, never truly content. And so, he closed his laptop and stepped outside into the fresh air. As he took a deep breath, he made a promise to himself to live a simpler, more fulfilling life, free from the pressures of the modern world.

Another goal met

Tonight I deadlifted 200 lbs 5 sets of 5 with 3 minutes rest between each set, felt good not just to lift the weight but to be setting and making personal goals. Saturday will be another goal reached, the first week of exercising for 3 days, for the last month there have been so many different things that got in the way but I am determined to start meeting these goals.

So, here are my goals for right now. First, is 12 weeks of exercising 3 days a week. Second, squatting 200lbs for reps, at 150 today so adding 5lbs per workout with no setbacks 4 weeks from now I should be there. I have to decide if I am going to continue adding 10 lbs per workout on the deadlift, if so I will be hitting 300 lbs in 4 weeks, and I may drop down to 5 lbs if it gets to be a struggle. Third, continuing to bench press, because I have nerve damage in my right arm from the spine outward so currently at 105 lbs today and my goal is just to keep pressing forward to get to 150 lbs for now.

On top of these goals, I am giving up ice cream for lent which started yesterday. Several years ago I stopped putting sugar in my coffee for lent and went to straight black strong coffee and have never regretted the choice still sugar-free to this day. Well there are my physical goals for the next 40 days and 12 weeks respectively. I may also start adding long walks to my weekly routine just to get some of my muscles loosened and stretched.

A Moment or more

The small moment in the eye of the storm,
where the silence swells and dominates,
That brief moment of clarity
surrounded by the swirling chaos,
when the madness has been temporarily
staved off, if ever so briefly.
It is in that place I struggle to stay.
A minute, an hour, a day.
If only time would stand still.
That moment of clarity stretched
out toward infinity, the storm
forever held at bay, just out of reach.
Could I stay there though?
Would there be dreams there,
inspiration, and desires?
The simple things that make life,
how would they survive,
stuck in an eternity of silence?