I miss you Mom. This is the first Mother’s Day without you here and I miss you very much. The pain of your passing is still too raw and the new normal of life is still full of sadness.

Some days are filled with nothing but pain. Physical or emotional the pain is real. Together they are a damn burden. Sometimes the burden just feels like more than I can bear and I don’t know how to go on. …

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I have an essential tremor, essential in that it is not a familial tremor genetically inherited. Somedays it is imperceptible, almost like a slight vibration, other days it is a noticeable tremor in my hands and arms; then there are …

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Working on a short story to try and work through some issues, sometimes it helps to change the names and look at a problem from the outside. Doug considered himself one of the luckiest men in the world. He had …

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Are bad enough on a regular house, on an earth sheltered home they are more difficult. Today in the rain, my son Trevor and I moved about 120 cubic feet of dirt and mud to get water draining off the …

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So I have decided to get in on the gig economy as a part time professional cuddler. Yes you read that correctly, I will be charging money to sit and hold another person in a platonic, non-sexual manner. I strongly …

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My Pastor has mentioned several times over the last year how dangerous insecure people can be in our lives. The problem I have is that I am the insecure person in my life and the life of my family. Often …

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Somedays it is all I feel, a deep chasm of emptiness, alone in my own thoughts. Too far away from even those I love, only emptiness and loneliness eating away at me, gnawing on me like a dog with a …

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For quite sometime now I have not had the will to write. When I self published my book I found myself at a loss for words and confused as to how to sell and promote my book. I just do …

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Vehicle with Back the Blue/Punisher decals speeds past as many cars as possible during a lane merge, forces their way in cutting off another driver nearly causing a wreck that would have involved several vehicles. Never mind the fucked up …

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