Some days there is nothing but the heartache. Nothing but the pain of loss dragging me down into the depths of despair. Days like today I feel so alone, I want to talk but the words just wont come out …

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White southerners want to celebrate their “confederate heritage” but expect African Americans to forget about slavery, Jim Crow and the continuing systemic racism. WTF

Words all jumbled up in my mind, wanting out of their prison. They are banging on my skull, screaming incoherently; failing to grasp the futility, not understanding that in the cacophony they produce, I simply cannot think coherent thoughts that …

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Scratching out wordsno lines want to rhymejust ink on paper. Thoughts slipping pastthrough time and etherjust ink on paper. Happiness and despairflowing freely togetherjust ink on paper.

There is a knot in my stomach every time I sit down to write lately. It is almost a fear, but I am not sure what I am afraid of, whether it is what I will write will be bad …

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I miss you Mom. This is the first Mother’s Day without you here and I miss you very much. The pain of your passing is still too raw and the new normal of life is still full of sadness.

Some days are filled with nothing but pain. Physical or emotional the pain is real. Together they are a damn burden. Sometimes the burden just feels like more than I can bear and I don’t know how to go on. …

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I have an essential tremor, essential in that it is not a familial tremor genetically inherited. Somedays it is imperceptible, almost like a slight vibration, other days it is a noticeable tremor in my hands and arms; then there are …

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Working on a short story to try and work through some issues, sometimes it helps to change the names and look at a problem from the outside. Doug considered himself one of the luckiest men in the world. He had …

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Are bad enough on a regular house, on an earth sheltered home they are more difficult. Today in the rain, my son Trevor and I moved about 120 cubic feet of dirt and mud to get water draining off the …

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