One of our topics for today is stress and coping. We started out by taking a test to determine our stress level. Not only did I score in the “distress” zone, but in a range of 0-55 I am at a 7. So, my stress is almost completely off the charts and of the 7 Sources of stress I am hitting all of them.
Now, sort of a chicken or egg question is whether I am depressed because of my stress or stressed because I am depressed. Unfortunately, I am not sure because there are times when I am not feeling depressed and the stress is still there. This is day four and I am not sure if I feel and better or different. Certainly I feel a sense of relief, almost ecstatic to get things off my chest I bottle up inside. Yet as soon as I get something off my chest it is like I crash back down, similarly to how I feel when I leave church, the service can be incredible and during the moment my depression falls away and when it is over I descend back into the darkness of myself.