Very frustrating when your mind is always in a negative state. I cannot even be “up” anymore without my mind just swirling in a dark cloud the majority of my waking hours. Just cannot seem to make any sense of the whole mess in my mind or why I obsessively think the way I do.
This week I start Cognitive Behavioral Therapy which is geared towards changing thinking and behavioral patterns. I want to go into this with an open mind but my own mind betrays me. Trying to convince myself that I just need to take it all one day at a time.