Yearly Archives: 2017

  Very frustrating when your mind is always in a negative state. I cannot even be "up" anymore without my mind just swirling in a dark cloud the majority of…

Feeling like I am flailing around, jumpy, not quite together. First day on an extended release adderall and my hands are shaking pretty bad. Hard to sit still or get…

Life is just heavy and unwieldy. Painful.

Hard to believe it has been almost 3 full weeks out of work. I only took two weeks off when I had ankle surgery, hobbled into work on crutches to…

All I want to do is get my damn car back on the road. Yes, it is my own damn fault, I should have turned it off immediately when it…

When the light is breaking over the horizon and you can start making out the debris strewn about from the storm. It is a tenuous time, the light is illuminating…

Relationships are one of the stressors in my life. I do not think I ever learned how to be a friend. When my father was transferred to Ft. Benning in…

I have been try to write down and work through the different things that are causing so much of my anxiety. Some of my anxieties I just cannot talk about,…

Chest tightening, unable to breathe, feeling everything crushing down. I had one last night while doing dishes, I was just gasping for breath trying to get a good deep breath…

A dream I have had since high school is nearing completion, my very own book in print! The cover is now complete and a few more edits remain before I…